I think that my life is useless right now, I don't get to do anything I want and that's sucks.
When I was in high school I could do anything I wanted, I felt free, freedom, but that's most likely will be the last time I'll be really free, now I'm in the army, later I'll have to work, to study, to find something to do with myself, I will never be free again.
Maybe I wasn't really free, cus I did work, I did study, I have done things that I didn't want to do, but I could choose what to do when, I didn't really had to work, I didn't really had to study (but I wanted to finish school, but it was my own decision).
If you'll ask me what I really want to do in life, I would just answer that I want to be free, I want to make my own decisions, I want to be free from worries, and simply live for the good things in life.
Where can I find freedom? I feel like I'm falling apart when I'm trapped, I feel like I'm a butterfly who lost his wings, waiting to die alone in the darkness.
I wish I could find my happiness, I wish I could find the right person to share this happiness with.
Good Night~